Woots suddenly have the urge to blog. Hmm it's been awhile 5 months since I last blogged eh. Oh welll そんなの関係ねぇ ！！. In case anyone reading my blog wants to understand what I mean, go to youtube and search for "Yukio Kojima". Man that guy cracks me up. Dam hilarious, with his trademark poses and that killer 1 liner.
Well anyway, time passes dam fast nowadays. Wake up brush teeth and it's soon to bed again. Well not that fast really but it still kinda flies. 1 moment sitting in dad's car going to school, next falling asleep in lessons, chatting abit here and there and it's nightfall suddenly. DAM!! Feels like there isn't much time around nowadays.
And i guess if i don't actively take time off now and reflect on what I have done so far, where I have gone wrong, what I am doing right, where I am going from now on, who I may remotely miss. Time is just gonna just fly by and before I know it we would all have graduated and perhaps even saying our last goodbyes to one another.
Well, in case I never have the chance to, here's to all my good friends who stood by me, who helped me, and even though I may be a big f#$% bastard sometimes, still concerned about my well-being. (You know who you are, since you are reading the blog of some lazy guy who has not updated his blog for 5 long months ^^) I dedicate this song to you.
桜 コブクロ
Oh btw, it's in Japanese, so if you don't understand the lyrics... try to appreciate the melody and the beautifully choreographed music video instead. Many things have happened and many more will soon happen. Just know that I will always be there... when you don't need me, and when you need to find me... ahaha just 2 words, good luck.
Friends Always ^^
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
My 9 commandments
Woots its been a very long while since I blogged. Lols, guess my bad habit of laziness crept back in. Man, looking at my past blog entries, suddenly I realise.... I really miss Japan... Or rather more accurately I really miss the time I spent on exchange in school in Japan
I can just practically wake up everyday, smile on my face, exclaiming " oh what a beautiful day it is today!" looking all excited for class, for meeting up with my table tennis friends. Knowing that I can just about totally relax with them... =D. Though there were always some language problems during communication (I can't really speak good japanese >.<" ) they were patient and waited to listen to what I had to say... 2 ears and 1 mouth hor... If we look at what we have and assuming that more is better, shouldn't listening take priority over talking?
Perhaps that is why I like it over there. Sure the food is great, the weather is nice, great sakura trees, many places of attraction. But i guess the biggest plus point is that the friends all ovr there are very patient with me. Getting the sense that they really take some time to hear what I say.
Back in sg... to be honest, there are always nice souls out there, people who really take time off to listen to understand.... Although sadly, i find many people here who likes to talk.. alot. Perhaps because more is better, being able to talk more gives the idea that one is better? (I also do have some controversial hypothesis on their self-esteem but am not going to do it here cos it will be probably be a tad nasty) Everyone seems to have the obession with being the best.
Being the best is definitely an admirable goal I must admit. It takes lots of hard work and sacrifices to be right there at the top. I respect them, because I probably won't be as strong willed as them, probably too biased towards relaxing and taking things easy than being under pain.....
And yet, being the best is one thing... Getting there at the expense of others is another....
Another thing I really like when I was in Japan is how people always try to save face for others... In the sense that whenever I sprout out some nonsense (which being the dumbheaded guy I am I do it pretty often) the people around me, will gently correct me usually in an indirect way, first pointing out all the strengths of what i say, then quickly pointing out my error, and end off by continuing to praise my strengths... Lols, I really am thankful and admire how my friends can be so subtle about things even though many are just around 20 years of age... being the proud ass that I am, that really helps. Really need to learn that from them...
I realise I do have some problems settling down back in sg so I decided to create some little rules for myself to adhere to. Hopefully whenever I am stressed by the surroundings this set of rules can help me...
1) Always count my blessings... Yes I do have alot and am very thankful for all of them =D
2) Complaining sucks don't do it... I want to recreate what it feels like when I was in japan, complainfree
3) Don't ever preach... Cos I never liked to be preached to, so I don't want to do the same
4) No point explaining things to people who don't listen... Cos that would be a waste of breath
5) If I can't get the desired results no matter how many times I tried, there's probably something wrong with how I approach whatever I am doing... Cos doing it wrongly infinite times still ends up wrong...
6) When things go wrong, never take the easy route of blaming others... Cos it's at least partly my fault
7) Learn from others' as much as possible... Cos knowledge is power
8) Everyone has something good about them, just takes time finding it... Cos we are all humans and I believe I have something good in me, however minscule that maybe >.<"
9) Do whatever I say... Cos I am preaching now....
Okies this helped alot. Feeling much better now ^^... Will be writing again "soon"
I can just practically wake up everyday, smile on my face, exclaiming " oh what a beautiful day it is today!" looking all excited for class, for meeting up with my table tennis friends. Knowing that I can just about totally relax with them... =D. Though there were always some language problems during communication (I can't really speak good japanese >.<" ) they were patient and waited to listen to what I had to say... 2 ears and 1 mouth hor... If we look at what we have and assuming that more is better, shouldn't listening take priority over talking?
Perhaps that is why I like it over there. Sure the food is great, the weather is nice, great sakura trees, many places of attraction. But i guess the biggest plus point is that the friends all ovr there are very patient with me. Getting the sense that they really take some time to hear what I say.
Back in sg... to be honest, there are always nice souls out there, people who really take time off to listen to understand.... Although sadly, i find many people here who likes to talk.. alot. Perhaps because more is better, being able to talk more gives the idea that one is better? (I also do have some controversial hypothesis on their self-esteem but am not going to do it here cos it will be probably be a tad nasty) Everyone seems to have the obession with being the best.
Being the best is definitely an admirable goal I must admit. It takes lots of hard work and sacrifices to be right there at the top. I respect them, because I probably won't be as strong willed as them, probably too biased towards relaxing and taking things easy than being under pain.....
And yet, being the best is one thing... Getting there at the expense of others is another....
Another thing I really like when I was in Japan is how people always try to save face for others... In the sense that whenever I sprout out some nonsense (which being the dumbheaded guy I am I do it pretty often) the people around me, will gently correct me usually in an indirect way, first pointing out all the strengths of what i say, then quickly pointing out my error, and end off by continuing to praise my strengths... Lols, I really am thankful and admire how my friends can be so subtle about things even though many are just around 20 years of age... being the proud ass that I am, that really helps. Really need to learn that from them...
I realise I do have some problems settling down back in sg so I decided to create some little rules for myself to adhere to. Hopefully whenever I am stressed by the surroundings this set of rules can help me...
1) Always count my blessings... Yes I do have alot and am very thankful for all of them =D
2) Complaining sucks don't do it... I want to recreate what it feels like when I was in japan, complainfree
3) Don't ever preach... Cos I never liked to be preached to, so I don't want to do the same
4) No point explaining things to people who don't listen... Cos that would be a waste of breath
5) If I can't get the desired results no matter how many times I tried, there's probably something wrong with how I approach whatever I am doing... Cos doing it wrongly infinite times still ends up wrong...
6) When things go wrong, never take the easy route of blaming others... Cos it's at least partly my fault
7) Learn from others' as much as possible... Cos knowledge is power
8) Everyone has something good about them, just takes time finding it... Cos we are all humans and I believe I have something good in me, however minscule that maybe >.<"
9) Do whatever I say... Cos I am preaching now....
Okies this helped alot. Feeling much better now ^^... Will be writing again "soon"
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Kamakura + Birthday
Been a long busy week.
14th Jun (Sun): Went to kamakura.Visited many Buddhist temples as well as the famous Big Buddha Statue there. Temples are freaking money suckers!!! Each temple visit costed 300yen. In sg, entering temples are free. Ain't buddhist teachings all about leaving human desires and preparing for otherworldly affairs. If so, could someone please explain why I had to pay 1200 yen to visit 4 temples.... shheeeesshh, I could have ate a nice ramen set topped with char siew and soft cream with that amount....
Other than the expensive entrance fee however, Everything else were nice. The temples are very beautiful. Lush greeneries, colourful flowers, cool refreshing air. Above all, there's this peaceful serene feeling as we walked about the temple.
17th June: My BIRTHDAY, woots 24 years old already!! (can begin to feel the creaking and groaning sounds my joints make as I get up from bed) First time 
celebrating overseas. Woots after that went for overnight karaoke. Man am I shag. 9.30pm all thruu the night to 5am the next day. Not even a short nap. Just singing, frens singing, toilet, drinks, repeat.... Got back to the dorm around 7+am. Just in time for the 9am class.
celebrating overseas. Woots after that went for overnight karaoke. Man am I shag. 9.30pm all thruu the night to 5am the next day. Not even a short nap. Just singing, frens singing, toilet, drinks, repeat.... Got back to the dorm around 7+am. Just in time for the 9am class. 
Wanna thank Deborah, Samantha and Anthony for the lovely Melon cake they bought for my b day. =D
Saturday, June 6, 2009
明日は最初と最後の試合
疲れた！！今日は卓球をたくさん練習したので、今は足や腕もちょっと痛いだ。つかれても、なんとなく嬉しいなあ。確かに今の自分の卓球術は下手で、明日の試合に勝つチャンスはぜんぜんないけど、、まあもう関係ない。もう一生懸命練習したし、卓球部員のアドビスもうおぼえたし、そして、明日来ないけど家で僕のためを応援する友もいるから。
だから今は自分の力を信じる。明日相手はいくら強くても畏怖しない。勝つためしか考えない。絶対に諦めない。それは僕のやり方。頑張らなければならない約束は絶対に守るよ。（火。火）
留学の時間は速すぎたなあ。もう６月か。後２ヶ月。。。しょがないなあ。しょがない。たくさん思いで作ったので、満足のはずだけど、今ぜんぜんそうは思っていない。たくさん思い出を作ったら、もっともっとたくさん思い出を作りたい。それでも、俺もよく知ってる。無理な願いはいくら思っても無理だ。だから無理なことを思わずに、できるだけもっともっといい思い出と絆を作っておく。
よし、もう寝る時間だ。じゃねえ
だから今は自分の力を信じる。明日相手はいくら強くても畏怖しない。勝つためしか考えない。絶対に諦めない。それは僕のやり方。頑張らなければならない約束は絶対に守るよ。（火。火）
留学の時間は速すぎたなあ。もう６月か。後２ヶ月。。。しょがないなあ。しょがない。たくさん思いで作ったので、満足のはずだけど、今ぜんぜんそうは思っていない。たくさん思い出を作ったら、もっともっとたくさん思い出を作りたい。それでも、俺もよく知ってる。無理な願いはいくら思っても無理だ。だから無理なことを思わずに、できるだけもっともっといい思い出と絆を作っておく。
よし、もう寝る時間だ。じゃねえ
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
明日は日本語の中間試験 （T.T）
疲れた！！！最近はとても忙しかったなあ。。。週末が卓球の試合もあったし、毎日毎日日本語の授業も３時間あるし、今夜も卓球の練習があった。休みたいよ！！ちょっと日本の色々な面白い場所へ旅行したい。日本へ来る前、留学するは長い夏休みだと思った。成績はよくなくても大丈夫だし、友達によると、一般の日本大学は自分の大学より授業がやさしいらしい。
でもね、疲れても、何か喜んでいる。確か僕は暇のほういいと思うけど、I feel as though I have achieved something with my life. =D。（前の文は日本語ではちょっと無理なので。。。＝。＝”）いつも自分に言ってる、「昨日の自分より強く」。強くなりたかったら、頑張らなくちゃね。
明日は大変で恐い日だ！！日本語の中間試験だ！！！ぜんぜん勉強しないよ。テキストを見ると、すぐ頭が痛くなる！！大変なあ、大学生の生活は！！確かにきれいな女に日本語で話せるように、日本語を勉強しちゃう。だがテキストの単語はちょっと役に立たない＝。＝。いくら勉強しても、話す時はたくさん間違えた言葉ある。ラッキーなのは間違えた時は「親切な」友達いっぱいいるよ。冗談を言わずに、まじめにしゃべっても、「親切な」友達を急に笑わせると、きっともう一回言葉が間違えた。（T。T）
じゃ最後。この間新しい単語を教えてもらった。この単語はとても便利だよ。いつでも、誰とでも使える。使うと、相手にたくさん感じをさせる。感じはいいかどうか知らないけど、きっと話は面白くなる。じゃ、言葉は。。。。「性病」だ！！！例えば、先生に聞く時、「先生、性病にかかったことある？」 きっと面白くなるよ。信じられなかったら、聞いてみて。
でもね、疲れても、何か喜んでいる。確か僕は暇のほういいと思うけど、I feel as though I have achieved something with my life. =D。（前の文は日本語ではちょっと無理なので。。。＝。＝”）いつも自分に言ってる、「昨日の自分より強く」。強くなりたかったら、頑張らなくちゃね。
明日は大変で恐い日だ！！日本語の中間試験だ！！！ぜんぜん勉強しないよ。テキストを見ると、すぐ頭が痛くなる！！大変なあ、大学生の生活は！！確かにきれいな女に日本語で話せるように、日本語を勉強しちゃう。だがテキストの単語はちょっと役に立たない＝。＝。いくら勉強しても、話す時はたくさん間違えた言葉ある。ラッキーなのは間違えた時は「親切な」友達いっぱいいるよ。冗談を言わずに、まじめにしゃべっても、「親切な」友達を急に笑わせると、きっともう一回言葉が間違えた。（T。T）
じゃ最後。この間新しい単語を教えてもらった。この単語はとても便利だよ。いつでも、誰とでも使える。使うと、相手にたくさん感じをさせる。感じはいいかどうか知らないけど、きっと話は面白くなる。じゃ、言葉は。。。。「性病」だ！！！例えば、先生に聞く時、「先生、性病にかかったことある？」 きっと面白くなるよ。信じられなかったら、聞いてみて。
Sunday, May 31, 2009
あと二ヶ月
週末が終わるのは速い過ぎたなあ。。楽しんでいる時はいつもそんなに速く進むなあ。。。
週末は卓球部の女性の試合が東大にあったので、応援しに行った。いつも、アニメやまんがから東大のことを習っても、日本に来てから、ぜんぜん行ったことなかった。だから、東大を見て、ちょっと気持ちよくなった。キャンパスは大きいよ、東外大より大きい。本屋も大きいし、建物も多いし、緑もたくさんある。だがちょっと古いと思う。体育馆もちょっと臭いにおいがしたから、やっぱり東外大のほうがいいと思う。
試合はすごくすごくよかった。女性の試合なのに、も面白かった。みんなもそんなに強いし、スマッシュも速いから、行って見てよかったな。ちょっと残念だけど、女性は負けちゃった。それでも、勝ったか負けたかは関係ないと思う。一番大切なのは、進歩したかと思う。しあい終わってから、みんなはきっと上手になった。
日本へ来てから、もう二ヶ月ぐらい。あと二ヶ月なあ。何か今心が痛いなあ。日本もっともっと好きになる。たくさんいい友達を作った。特に卓球部と一生にたくさんいい思い出を作った。だがしょがない。卒業に長くなくなるために、両親を心配しないために、帰国しないと。。。
来週、もう一回試合があって、今回俺も初めて出るので、今は何も考えないで、試合に勝てるように、卓球の練習ばかりするつもりだ。
よし！！がんばるぜ！！
週末は卓球部の女性の試合が東大にあったので、応援しに行った。いつも、アニメやまんがから東大のことを習っても、日本に来てから、ぜんぜん行ったことなかった。だから、東大を見て、ちょっと気持ちよくなった。キャンパスは大きいよ、東外大より大きい。本屋も大きいし、建物も多いし、緑もたくさんある。だがちょっと古いと思う。体育馆もちょっと臭いにおいがしたから、やっぱり東外大のほうがいいと思う。
試合はすごくすごくよかった。女性の試合なのに、も面白かった。みんなもそんなに強いし、スマッシュも速いから、行って見てよかったな。ちょっと残念だけど、女性は負けちゃった。それでも、勝ったか負けたかは関係ないと思う。一番大切なのは、進歩したかと思う。しあい終わってから、みんなはきっと上手になった。
日本へ来てから、もう二ヶ月ぐらい。あと二ヶ月なあ。何か今心が痛いなあ。日本もっともっと好きになる。たくさんいい友達を作った。特に卓球部と一生にたくさんいい思い出を作った。だがしょがない。卒業に長くなくなるために、両親を心配しないために、帰国しないと。。。
来週、もう一回試合があって、今回俺も初めて出るので、今は何も考えないで、試合に勝てるように、卓球の練習ばかりするつもりだ。
よし！！がんばるぜ！！
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Indecision
Sometimes I hate having free time. Nothing to do, my mind goes wild, thinking of many unecessary things... How time flies isn't it. 2 months... Been in Japan for 2 months already. The more I stay here, the more I don't feel like going back. Of course I miss my friends, miss the food back home, miss having my own personnal internet that is totally reliable and not like the slow, shitty unreliable internet here in my dorm. And yet, and yet.... I like my life as it is now. Freedom to be on my own, to do the things I like, to just stare out of the balcony at the lush green trees before me on a lazy sunday afternoon, not having to constantly worry about how "I should be wisely spending time my time" No stress at all.
The thing about writing on a blog is that I wanna keep records of significant things happening in my life. Perhaps so that 3, 4 years down the road I could look back and say, "oh that was crazy of me" or "I was so dumb back then" and laugh at my own naive self.... Those were memories of me when I were young, if i don't remember them no one else would... If I don't treasure them, it ain't going to come back. I ain't going to have a chance to live my life over again...
And yet as much as i would love to pen down all my happenings, all my thoughts here on this blog, I can't and won't. It gets too personnal, too uncomforatable perhaps for the readers and for me. Some things are better left untold perhaps. It is better that way. Being an economics major, I unconsciously tend to think things through cost benefit analysis. Seeing pros and cons in doing anything and everything. Cons outweight the pros in tlaking about some stuffs.
However this much I would say. I believe every human being has an emotional side to themselves. Not revealing that side to others doesn't necessarily mean that they ain't emotional. In fact, it maybe totally opposite. They are so emotional and sensitive to others that they would bottle everything up inside of themselves, wearing a mask to hide their true feelings.... Actually just by being emotionless, it screams out so loudly that there is something inside, bottled up and hidden. Ever heard of the saying "silence has the loudest noise"? Well, it's the same with emotions....
I once asked friends this question, " would you prefer fake flowers that last for a lifetime or real flowers that only last for a while?" Opinions were varied. Some prefer not knowing the truth and basking in supposed happiness while others prefered it real even though it is short..... For me, I won't wanna receive any flowers cos I am a guy. *smirks*
Now I am going to ask myself a similar question, " What would I do when I know there's something I really want but I know I may never get. Do I still go for it, nevermind the odds and pain? Or do I just meekly move on, as though I never knew about that thing at all. It is better for everyone that way isn't it?"
I really don't know...
The thing about writing on a blog is that I wanna keep records of significant things happening in my life. Perhaps so that 3, 4 years down the road I could look back and say, "oh that was crazy of me" or "I was so dumb back then" and laugh at my own naive self.... Those were memories of me when I were young, if i don't remember them no one else would... If I don't treasure them, it ain't going to come back. I ain't going to have a chance to live my life over again...
And yet as much as i would love to pen down all my happenings, all my thoughts here on this blog, I can't and won't. It gets too personnal, too uncomforatable perhaps for the readers and for me. Some things are better left untold perhaps. It is better that way. Being an economics major, I unconsciously tend to think things through cost benefit analysis. Seeing pros and cons in doing anything and everything. Cons outweight the pros in tlaking about some stuffs.
However this much I would say. I believe every human being has an emotional side to themselves. Not revealing that side to others doesn't necessarily mean that they ain't emotional. In fact, it maybe totally opposite. They are so emotional and sensitive to others that they would bottle everything up inside of themselves, wearing a mask to hide their true feelings.... Actually just by being emotionless, it screams out so loudly that there is something inside, bottled up and hidden. Ever heard of the saying "silence has the loudest noise"? Well, it's the same with emotions....
I once asked friends this question, " would you prefer fake flowers that last for a lifetime or real flowers that only last for a while?" Opinions were varied. Some prefer not knowing the truth and basking in supposed happiness while others prefered it real even though it is short..... For me, I won't wanna receive any flowers cos I am a guy. *smirks*
Now I am going to ask myself a similar question, " What would I do when I know there's something I really want but I know I may never get. Do I still go for it, nevermind the odds and pain? Or do I just meekly move on, as though I never knew about that thing at all. It is better for everyone that way isn't it?"
I really don't know...
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